生病了

有人说“小病是福”，因为可以在家休息。

可是我平时没病没痛，一病就大件事，简直病得五颜六色，（头）痛不欲生。惨！感冒5天，咳嗽伤风发烧头痛，坚持吃中药让身体自行调和。

第一天早上小咳加鼻塞，可是到了下午感觉头重脚轻，看了医师病假半天。那天晚上我发烧了。第二天请了半天假可以睡得迟一些。感觉睡再多也不够酱。。下午到了公司第一件事就是去找医师，告诉她我昨晚发烧。医师：“你体内太热，应该把它发出来”医师给了第二天的病假standby。晚上又发烧了，而且烧到头痛。一天在家休息下来，头还是不断隐隐作痛，连右耳都痛。那晚睡觉，烧到被子都湿透了。但庆幸第二天烧也退了，头还是有点痛。马上让医师给我在头上和手（联系头的穴位）施针。说真的虽然不是第一次做针灸，还是有些紧张地与四根头针和两根手针度过了20分钟，还有电流哦。过后医师说头上施针是最危险的，因为可能头发遮着针忘了拔出来！医师给我开了更强劲的药来治我的重感冒。咳嗽流鼻水搞得我受不了，下午又拿了半天病假。幸好有两天周末休息。

星期六晚餐，吵着男人带我去吃CJ餐馆的脆鱿鱼酥。还很得意地告诉SA我要以毒攻毒，把体内的热气逼出来。她说：“什么歪理，如果你做医生，我一定不给你看病”=p 咳咳

Expensive lesson learnt

Went for dinner with K last night. After meal, K went to Cold Storage, me headed home. Received a phone call from K half an hour later.

K: Where are you now?
Me: At home. Y?
K: I left my laptop in the food court!
Me: Oh no, go find it now!

Ten minutes later.

Me: Where are you?
K: I am in a cab on the way to food court. I called the management office of food court but they did not retrieve my laptop. I am going down now to see if anybody take it.
Taxi pulling off.

Five minutes later.

K: Gone liao. Nothing left.
Me: ……
K: Very bad luck, such thing meant to happen (fated).
Me: ……
K: Should have reminded you to look after laptop for me..
Me: I feel bad for you too. Should have place the laptop on table so that it’s more visible. Let me know should I be of any help (felt helpless though..)
K: Haih.. it’s ok la. Nvm. Thanks.

Lessons learnt:
1) Place valuable items on the table in a crowded place
2) Remind companion to remind you if you tend to forget things

Lovely sunday

My bf thinks that i am a freak! i went to bed at 3am on Sunday, woke up 8.30am the next day, he thought i was blogging all the time. He punched me on the tiny head in an effort to put me to sleep again. But i couldn't, i was just too immersed in some stuff (something constructive finally).. what else did i do on Sunday? Can't remember cos was too tired. My brain finally shut down at 1.45pm, hit the bed & nvr woke up.. until 5pm.

Went to bed again at 10.30pm cos was tired from long nap in the afternoon =p
That was how my lovely sunday came to an ideal closure.

2007 Sg national day theme - City of Possibilities

It's one of the sleepless nights that i spend hours on something i like, forgetting time & Mr. Chou in my dream. Yeah, im born slacker & thus will only spend time doing things i like & will channel the least energy into tackling problems i face in life or work unless it interests me.

Would like to share with dear friends of the "motivational" books i read before, there are so many. Some people will change with only one message embeded in their mind; well, many books did aroused an urge in me to do something with my life for a while, then it dies away as soon as i close the book =p i guess it depends on how desperate i am to make things happen yeah? To motivate myself, i shall read aloud to myself first thing every morning, "I will make today a more interesting day than yesterday"

My little prayer of the day:
Dear God, i pray for open heart & open mind to see the endless opportunities, wisdom & strength to capitalise on them to translate them into advantageous situations. Amen.

I think I write I blog

It’s been 4 months since I started blogging; in retrospect, this place reflects most of my moment-of-truth thoughts, many times the sudden angst, impulsive thoughts, satire & mere ramblings.. hmm not very constructive & informative I have been. Shall make a “new blog” resolution as follows:

1 – Be less cynical & write more about the sweet & nice things in life
2 – Write more in English to improve my language skill which has degraded tremendously since after Uni
3 – Be more consistent & write more often every now & then to record the bits & pieces of my life's happenings (if I try hard enough I’ll be able to squeeze time in between work, study, well-being, leisure, family & social activities)
4 – Write longer entries
5 – Make sure all of the above happen!

Some times wonder why the hell people write blog? Didn’t diary used to be a very private thing? Realized people get more & more high-tech but also lonelier that they need people to pay attention to their lives. How sad is the lonely part but much gratitude to the advancement of technology that enables communication between two hearts across the globe at the convenience of the fingertips.

With time & money as scarcity, we don't live close enough to our dear ones whom we'd often love to share our life stories with, for example, my mum but she can't use a computer for nuts. So I know she won't read my blog & phonecalls is the only form of communication when we are apart from each other. My bf (who fondly self-proclaimed i am his fiance) who's with me almost 24/7 would be the "luckiest" person on earth to have heard all my stories, whining, fantasy, imagination, rubbish, craps etc etc.. so he'll only read my blogs when i demand him to do so muahahahah...... Then leave only my dear friends out there!! Yeah, i write for you!! Touched?!? T_T let me know you are hahah..

Latest update of myself, same company, same job, same bf, same house, same hairstyle, same shoe size. Very interesting? Well, that's it for now. Watch out for more intersting things to come!

废话

说要赶在七月结束之前写多一篇。幸好我不是靠文字赚吃的，不然以我这种产量和水准，不止吃不饱，还可能饿得死；越饿就越没灵感；越没灵感就越没钱吃饭；越没钱吃饭就越饿。。。。
我真的饿了，必须吃饭了。谢谢看我写废话的人，谢谢你的捧场！

下个月再接再厉吧！！！

男人面子/女人尊严

"Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud."

世上最伤人的事情不是“我站在你面前，你却不知道我爱你”；这顶多是被自己的多情所伤。
而是，“我站在我最爱的人面前，你却伤我最深”；这种痛，我明白，却无法形容。。。
爱一个人，请尊重他/她。男人爱面子，女人需要尊严。

所以，不管女朋友有什么要求都必须尽量满足她以维护她的尊严；否则男人则别奢望女友也照顾他的面子。

倒数

倒数是快乐的。
倒数着下班那一刻。
倒数着假期的来临。
倒数着分发奖金那一天。
倒数着别人不知道的事情。
倒数着一场假惺惺的好戏上演。
倒数着一个人的离去。
倒数着自己的重生。

人家气我，我不气。
为什么？
她，已经没有威胁性了。
无谓的挣扎，反而勾引出我少少的同情心，真不应该啊！

目的

很虚脱的成就感！虚脱因为太累了，成就感来自于完成一项自以为了不起的事情。结果还不知道，所以只能自己心里爽。

做人是不是一定要有目的。不停的追逐目的比较累？还是漫无目的地寻找目的比较累？为什么我这么空闲却那么累？（不懂有没有人懂我在念什么？）如果两个人在一起，目的却相差十万八千里，就真的会累死人。

看着一分一秒流去的时间，我的目的越来越有了着落，3分钟倒数。。。走人! shopping!

Instant Gratification

注解：近年来流行的名词。2001年美国911事件后，当代青年人目睹了许多宝贵的生命在一瞬间消失的惨痛经历，人们不再相信计划和设订长远目标；他们失去了等待的耐心而希望得到“即刻回报”。

开始领悟到生命不在于长短而是它的精彩之处，在于你做过什么和错过什么。当你以为你非得到一样东西不可时，不妨远离一切让自己独处，你会发现其实并没有错过什么。。

是不是表示就算放弃也没什么大不了?

表白

欣赏你的勇气但sorry你不是我那杯茶。
Thanks anyway, u made my day.

E.X.A.M

我身边的朋友一年到头都有某人为了某个qualification或license在考试；考term exam, final exam, MBA, CIM, actuaries, CPA, ACCA & etc etc.. 考试！考不完的试！还记得从前“被逼”着进考场的那种日子，曾经在考Food Technology 1的那一天对自己发誓，这将会是我人生最后一次踏进考场。就在Hooray声不久两年多后的今天，我又很犯贱地即将走进考场！这些日子来的劳累和紧张就是我不守誓言的报应吧。。

有个男人对我说，其实这大多数读书考试人里的大多数人也不是真的很有目标；从未进入大学时代就开始选择一些很“实际”的科目来攻，常常劝自己keep the options open，好像没有options人生就从此doom了？到了某个阶段就真的open to no where；现在读这个学那样也只是努力地trying to narrow down the options。过了一段时间，他开始对现状不满，结果又再次展开了一番追逐与实现梦想的旅途。据说这种旅途，一生人至少会经历一次，有些人的旅途早，有些迟，有些长，有些短；好此不疲者大有人在。其实这是好事情来的，用年轻当本钱，旅途上的风景，看在眼里的世界才会多姿多彩嘛。

是怪大环境转变得太快，人人忙碌/盲目地改变自己来适应环境；还是小环境没有从小把我们培养成有目标有理想（不是只向钱看）的人。也许曾有过的梦想，因为种种和种种的理由而荡然无存了。最合理的借口就是人的愿望会随着年龄增长而改变。。 “成长成长，我已成长”我是很心安理得噢。

现在的我，只是很纯粹想混口好饭吃，希望“梦”想快快实现吧！

爱情保鲜formula?

1. Remember (sweet memories)
2. Forgive (wrong doings)
3. Forget (delete from your memory what you've forgiven)
The critical control step! If faithfully observed, positive feedback system A. If fail to be observed, negative feedback system B.

Feedback system A: accept things that cannot be changed graciously (may develop into 5)
Feedback system B: tolerate things that cannot be changed with grudge (may develop into 6)

5. "Happily ever after" & repeat from no.1
6. Volcano erupts one day & the whole system breaks down

This system is highly sensitive & needs constant lubricants (lots of care, concern, patience, communication & commitment).

Romantic, creativity, humorous & surprises are highly recommended parts of the system.

Once break down, will need even more lubricants & top grade parts for repair OR be prepared to scrap it.

The fact is bread & $$ are involved all the time. So must make sure they are always present but not to pose a problem to the system.

白色巨塔

懦弱的借口
勇敢的执着

窗外風鈴一直不安靜　風在搖晃不安的宿命
我聆聽　你回憶經過的聲音

開始旅行寂寞很清醒　我在靠近過去的邊景
有些　戀人只是　路過時的風景

曾經太過年輕　卻絕對真心
我給的愛是種任性　不懂花開只一次的愛情
曾經太過年輕　淚純真透明
你的堅定　我仍然還　相信

直到如今你說愛我的那封信
我一直都收藏著　摺疊用心　讓誓言乾淨

曾經太過年輕　在人海飄零
那些關於我的事情　總有你緊緊跟隨的聲音
曾經太過年輕　淚純真　透明

你的堅定　我仍然還　相信

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需要多少时间才能领悟

珍惜身边的一切 才能开始拥有

Temptations

My horoscope says that I'll have many suitors today. Oh really?
In fact, was so upset just the night before. So don't really believe it.
In fact, had to cancel a few appointments due to urgent leave from the office.

A call from a friend the afternoon didn't really spice up my day, he just called at a wrong time when all other times i'll be glad enough to entertain him. My gut feel however tells me that this isn't someone i should mingle with as there's succinct suggestion in his friendliness. Something's morally not right for a married man with three kids.

There are temptations & persuasions. The question is, what do i want? With as much dignity as i have, i can lift up my head & know exactly what i want.

I know this is just one of the many episodes of temptations in life one has to live & deal with.

J.E.R.K

The biggest jerk i've come across is one that shuns responsibility -- by making his woman takes the responsibility.

Little thing as he says,"U just plan & let me know ur decision afterwards"
His message: I don't bother to be romantic, if the plan does not work out or the restaurant food is not good, it's not my problem! I was not keen on it afterall!

Serious issue as he goes,"U hav to decide wat u wan to do with the child. I am not ready for marriage yet"
His message: I just want the fun minus the consequence!

So what if he's generous to his friends, if he's stingy to u?
So what if he's great at his work, if he's not willing to work things out with u?

"It takes years to build reputation and a few seconds to destroy it". As always the case, a person's reputation is representative of his personality, so the moment his personality changes, his reputation changes.
The next question, can u stick on to such a person when u hav a different perspective of him?

To whom is reading my blog, being responsible is a very much valued personality. It reflects the quality of a leader who gives ppl sense of security & peace of mind.

What am i doing?

S.U.P.P.O.S.E.D T.O B.E S.T.U.D.Y.I.N.G

End of work week

该做的事都没有做。。最厉害就是“tu”，tu完了还是tu，做事情真的很last minute!很讨厌酱的人。26年磨炼出来的功力不是盖的哦，不然那里象我？

工作上的怨气任谁都会有吧？自己的故事，加上别人那里听来的，发现其实每个人都过着同一种生活。今天你是A，明天变成B或CDE。故事的循环都是同一个模式吗？这就是往上爬的必经之路吗？我想"上面"人的豁达都曾经历过如此这般的用心经营吧？一个笨的人最聪明的地方就是他安静不讲话（别人以为他很深奥）；相反地，一个聪明的人最笨的地方就是讲太多话（不是每个人都能忍受自己要讲的话全被另一个人讲完了）！然后到处分配工作给其他人而自己负责分配工作给其他人。这些人有两个名字--老板or 以为自己是老板的人士!!我是在说老板笨吗？当然不。而是另一种人！笨在骄傲自大，不得人心。不知道老板以前是不是酱呢？笨人以后会不会变成老板呢？Omigo, anybody, pls enlighten me..

又是个先有鸡还是先有蛋的问题。种种的不公就不能用“偏心”两个字来解释吗？虽说人非圣贤，孰能无过，只不过他的过错冒犯到了我就让我好恨啊！可我顶多发几个牢骚，默默咒骂（好没杀伤力呀！），就是还没有达到那个境界，好恨好恨啊！！

两件事

之一：说与不说
之二：做与不做

往往在这两件事上徘徊，矛盾。思前想后，顾左盼右，老是得不出结论。好像很钻牛角尖，不知所谓。

发现，弹指之间作的决定(Snap Judgement - "BLINK")有时候是最好的决定。话，就肯定不能乱说。

又发现，原来还在等待一个时机。

星期六早上做什么？

今天起了个大早（8点啦，以周末的standard-算很早，呵呵）

就是为了去跑步。虽然昨晚被阿姨提醒jb的罪犯越来越猖狂，心里还是存有侥幸的想法说这种不好彩的事情应该不会发生在我身上吧。坏人可能在游泳过长堤时淹死了或者他们患有电梯恐惧症而不敢来新加坡（很瞎hor?）总之，大吉利是就对了。

准备就绪，出门时已是8点一刻。一路跑，一路想，今天要做些什么“有意义”的事情呢？到了就去吃早餐，交水电费，买报纸，逛逛然后搭巴士回家。噢。。搭巴士--我竟然忘了带易通卡。就是说—我得走路回家！！平时花20分钟跑完的路程今早因为懒惰，只跑一半，走一半，结果25分钟后才抵达。

9点不到的商场竟然只有Delifrance,BK和Breadtalk有开。吃不到我要的亚坤(Kopitiam)，我宁愿不吃。和我一样早起的还有一群出来卖（旗）的学生。他们很醒目地没有过来找我捐钱，不然可能会被一个吃不到烤面包的漂亮姐姐骂哦。

回家的路上，走到了一个岔路；我选择了另一条以前没有走过的小路。这条路原来比较多树木和青草地又远离大路和灰尘，心里暗爽是个不错的选择，呵呵。乘机猛吸带有青草味的空气，感觉好像对身体很好酱。我本来很优哉游哉地在走路，后来觉得好像很漏气就跑一点点，想等下没有人看到才走。想不到一路上有许多在跑步的“壮男”，有一个老ah pek（头发全白了应该算很老吧）只穿了件超短裤，身上少少有4块哦。结果，我还是跑了回家。

回到家时，竟然只是9点一刻。也就是说，这趟路程不过用了1小时来完成；比我赖床的时间还短哟（赖床时间长达1。25小时，恐怖吧？），呵呵！真是万事起头难！